I've gotten hundreds of comments and e-mails from wonderful, concerned people hoping that I'm all right and worrying about me. I'm sorry for making you all worry, and want to thank anyone who expressed concern, because it was really touching.
I'm going through an extremely difficult period in my personal life right now, battling depression and trying to sort my life out. When dealing with these kinds of issues, I find it impossible to feel passionate or excited about anything, so writing the blog has fallen by the wayside when I can't think past the stuff going on to enjoy the little things like make-up and nerdery.
I don't know when I'll start writing again, but I owe a few wonderful companies some write-ups so I know I will at some point. I want to thank everyone for bothering to stick around and read all the daft things I have to say.
Thank you all for bearing with me, and thank you for caring, because it makes a difference.
Rumours of my death have been greatly exaggerated.
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Sorry to hear you're going through a bad time but thanks for letting us know that you're okay :)
20 May 2010 22:40x
OH MY GOD YOU'RE BACK!
20 May 2010 22:45You have no idea how delighted I was when I saw your blog pop up in my blog feed. Jeez. You don't even know me but I'm not some crazy stalker :P I turned up at your blog reading the Lime Crime drama about a month ago and er, managed to read every post you've ever done. OK, a little stalkery. But I hope you'll get better soon, and thanks for stopping in :)
Awww girl, I've missed you.
20 May 2010 22:58Sent you e-mails trying to get your address to send you soap + candy, I was getting worried!
I hope you'll feel better soon!
Many many hugs
Cacau
I'm glad to hear Limey didn't order a hit on you! Remember that there's always a light at the end of the tunnel, and may the Force be with you.
20 May 2010 23:09I've missed you and your witty commentation of the Dark Force (aka Lime Crime). I went through depression and difficulty myself recently and I hope you will cheer up soon. If it helps, please consider adding vitamin D to your diet, about 2000 IU will do. It helped me getting out of the fog.
20 May 2010 23:34Sorry you're feeling so bad, but I am really glad that you checked in with us! May the force be with you! ;)
20 May 2010 23:36Good luck, and I can't wait for you to come back.
I know how you feel hun <3
21 May 2010 00:51I've been going through awful times recently too. I hope things get better! Just hang in there.
Much love!
Holy shit, I'm so glad you're not dead!
21 May 2010 01:00Depression sucks. I hope things start looking up for you soon. *hug*
Yay, good to hear you're alright! Sorry to hear life's a bitch right now, but what they say is true - it all works out in the end.
21 May 2010 01:15I'm glad you're okay. I'm not a praying person so I'll think happy sparkly thoughts your way :)
21 May 2010 01:18I know a lot of us are far away, but we still love you! If you ever need to talk, you know how to find me ::hugs::
21 May 2010 01:24I was *just* on your blog yesterday wondering if I'd somehow missed an email of a post!
21 May 2010 01:48Duldrums pass eventually. Glad that you're ok (relatively speaking) - I've been wondering where you disappeared to. Got broad, faraway shoulders if you need 'em.
I know what you're going through, I've been there several times, and am currently starting another battle. Please take all the time you need to do what you need to do, dear, and know we're all here rooting for you.
21 May 2010 01:49My heart goes out to you I just hope you're feeling better soon, I really miss your witty, honest and intelligent blog posts (particularly in reference to 'Darth Doe')and hope to see more popping up in the very near future. x
21 May 2010 01:57I'm so glad that you are ok (given the circumstances). I really hope that you feel better soon, and I hope you come back to the blogosphere soon. *sending good vibes your way*.
21 May 2010 03:44XOXO ~Dominique
I'm glad you're not dead. (I swear that's a line from somewhere).
21 May 2010 04:05Also, check Phyrra's blog for a review of Pokemon-themed eyeshadow. That should definitely go on your list for when you get back into things.
Best of luck; please remember that there's nothing wrong with you, even if you have depression/anxiety issues. It took me the longest time to accept that, even after I forced myself to undergo counselling and medication. I almost feel normal now ;) well, not the boring type of normal, anyway. Being depressed isn't a character flaw, it's a medical/phsychological issue and it's not your fault, if you get what I mean.
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As someone who also deals with depression, I just want to say I really admire your courage to openly state what is going on in your life. I hope you get back to feeling well soon, you definitely deserve it for all the wonderful things you bring into other people's lives.
21 May 2010 05:00I am so happy to hear that nothing has happen to you!
21 May 2010 05:24I have suffered from depression for quite a few years now, so I completely understand why you need a break from writing a blog.
Depression has a way of making even those things you used to love seem impossible to do. You have to push yourself just to get little thing done. Simple thing become exhausting.
The important thing to realize is, that while you cannot see it now, I promise the light at the end of the tunnel is there.
You are an amazing person. I do not know you personally, but I can tell by the way you write, and the things you say. You are unique is a great way.
You have many fans on the interwebz, I am one of them. Reading your blog has brought me laughs in times of sadness, and I am positive I am not the only one.
I hope the fog lifts much sooner than later!
<3<3<3
*hugs* Hope you feel better soon. <3
21 May 2010 07:38It's alive, ALIVE!!
21 May 2010 08:42I miss your texts, hope you feel better soon.
I've dealt several times with despression, so I know how it feels.
Hugs.
Anastasia,
21 May 2010 09:24I am so sorry to hear you are struggling. Please know that well wishes are being sent your way and I am here to offer my support.
Thank goodness. You know where I am if you need me. <3
21 May 2010 11:44Ana, I'm so glad to see you post! I've been concerned for a while now. I've been going through similar issues myself so I know how you feel.
21 May 2010 13:35Take it easy and visit me on twitter/email me from time to time :)
I miss my fellow geek so much. I miss tweeting with you too because you're basically the only person I tweeted with :( x
21 May 2010 13:51Lovely to see a post from you. Take care of yourself sweety. Lots of love and thoughts.
21 May 2010 14:37xoxo
Just take care of yourself :) Glad to hear Xenia didn't kidnap you or anything though
21 May 2010 15:16I'm so glad you're back! I've checked daily to see if you are. I'm sorry that things have been rough, I don't know your situation but I know how difficult it is to deal with depression and everything else that goes along with it--and how *un-exciting* makeup is at that point. You're in my thoughts, Anna, and I hope things get better on your end. Take care!
21 May 2010 16:33Sorry to hear about the general funkitude in your life. I'll send Princess Bubblegum's rainicorn your way.
21 May 2010 16:36(If you don't know, plz see Adventure Time on Youtube.)
Joining the ranks to say glad you're OK even though things are rough. Hopefully it'll get better soon. Take care of yourself, hear? X
21 May 2010 16:49I'm so sorry to hear that you haven't been feeling well, and I hope you feel better soon. *sends hugs and sparkles your way*
21 May 2010 16:50I miss you bunches and I'm thinking of you.
21 May 2010 17:48*hug*
Glad you're back, even for a bit! Thanks for the update, and hope things start looking up soon!
21 May 2010 20:05Many hugs, glad that you are oky (circumstances permitting), and hope to see you around the blogosphere a little soon.
21 May 2010 20:20Gem
sorry to hear about that!
21 May 2010 20:27Hope you feel better soon :)
*Hugs* Ana, I miss you! I hope your life gets sorted out soon, and I'm always on MSN, if you ever just need to talk.
21 May 2010 21:21Ana, I'm glad to see your post. I missed you and was very concerned about you. I'm sorry to hear things are so rough at the moment. I've been there too so I know how you feel. If you ever need someone to talk to, you know where I am. I hope things get better soon for you hun. *sending hugs and positive thoughts your way*
21 May 2010 21:22I'm glad you're physically safe, but I'll be hoping for some mental/emotional safety for you too.
22 May 2010 02:41Good luck and best wishes. I'll be hoping for good things for you.
I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling. I've been through depression quite a few times and I wish you only the best for a quick recovery. You've been missed but I hope you take all the time you need to get things back to good again :)
22 May 2010 05:52Very glad that you are back, Ana!
22 May 2010 12:30I was worried sick! :|
I'm so sorry you're having a bad time :( I really hope you feel much better soon! I'm also very happy as everyone here, to have some news from you! I was also very worried.
22 May 2010 13:14Wish you the best Anna! Looking forward to wonderful make up/geeky posts in the near future :)
Take care!
I can definitely relate :/
22 May 2010 16:21Please come back! We miss you!!
<3
I'm glad you updated your blog but I'm saddened that you're struggling.
22 May 2010 16:50I hope you will start feeling better soon and start enjoying the little things again.
Best wishes <3
I'm so happy you posted a new entry. I was really worried about you. I hope everything gets better for you. Take care...I hope you don't stay gone for too long.
23 May 2010 21:02Thank God for that! Take care of yourself, depression's a horrible beast to bear. The readers will still be here when you're feeling better.
24 May 2010 11:09I was getting really worried about you disappearing from the blogosphere and Twitter. Depression makes everything murky but I hope you'll be able to kick it's warty butt. I'm sending feelgood vibes your way. xxx
24 May 2010 15:16I stumbled upon your blog when looking for a lime crime review. I loved the theme of your blog. I'm also a girl who loves Star Wars. My favorite movie character being 3PO and book character being Mara Jade. However, I also love makeup. Because we have this both in common I found your blog to be totally awesome. I've bee checking back occasionally to see if you've updated and today I found a post. I hope everything you're going through works out in time for the best.
25 May 2010 15:38Lots of hugs my darling. Thanks to large daily doses of anti-depressants it's a while since my last major depressive episode but it's alway there, lurking in the background like a great big lurky thing. I'm sending you lots of love.
26 May 2010 03:39Hey Chica, you don't know me-even though comments- but I have been quietly following your blog for awhile. I'm glad you took the time to let everyone know what's up. I have battled bipolar depression and severe anxiety for 12 years. Any kind of depression, be it chemically caused or from actual life events is extremely hard to work through but it is doable. I hope you come out on the other side of this problem sooner rather than later and feeling stronger than ever. If you take this blog up again I'll be reading and in the meantime my thoughts will be with you!
26 May 2010 04:11So glad to hear you're ok!!!
26 May 2010 23:23It's great to hear from you, but not so great to hear that you're in a darker time. And that's ok, take your time and take care of yourself. The reviews and the blog can wait until you're feeling more comfortable in your life. Thanks for letting us know what's up and I wish you a speedy recovery through the tough times and clarity when sorting through them.
27 May 2010 04:15I'm so sorry to hear you're going through a hard time right now. Like everyone else has said, the blogs and reviews can wait. Thank you for letting us know you're still around <3 We'll be wishing the best for you.
29 May 2010 03:38I'm glad you felt okay enough to post an update; it's much appreciated, as is obvious from the tons of comments on your post. :) Like others here, I've fought with the depression and apathy (and still take medication to keep it in check), so I have an idea of how hard it can be to even convince yourself it's worth doing something like that. I don't know if you have the same mental traps that I do, but just in case - you're always so good about responding to each comment individually, but please don't feel like you have to do that in this case. It's really easy to get completely overwhelmed by something like that, and I know everyone here would rather you put your energy (what little of it there can be with depression) toward taking care of your real-life issues. <3<3<3
31 May 2010 19:40I don't know if you're reading these comments or not, but I'm pretty sure it's tomorrow over there. Wanted to come back and wish you a Happy Birthday :)
2 June 2010 04:55Been there, done that, should write the book about it. Take your time getting things back together. We'll be here when you get back.
2 June 2010 05:24Thinking of you my fellow Star Wars Nerdling. ((hugs)) e-mail me if you need an ear or a sounding board.
3 June 2010 20:38XOXOX - Elvira
Good to see an update from you but bad news about the poor health. I hope it lifts soon and your personal shizz gets resolved. We patiently look forward to reading you when you're ready to write again. Take care.
6 June 2010 23:07Okie dokie lady, I has something that may cheer you up a bit in case you didn't know already....check out the repromote shade in the shadow list here http://www.temptalia.com/mac-dare-to-wear-collection-for-fall-2010... hint, it's yellow! And you can delete this afterwards if ya want, I just wanted to share with you :)
7 June 2010 01:08just found your blog.. enjoy it a lot.
14 June 2010 19:23I hope everything works out and you may return!
I'm glad you're still alive and kicking! Please come back. You're a great writer and your reviews are honest and hilarious. I love me some geeky girl references! I also bought Fyrinnae based on your recommendation, although I have yet to try it out. Get better soon! We miss you!
15 June 2010 05:53Love you.
25 June 2010 00:53Hey, I hope you're getting better. Depression is hard, you you can overcome it. I did. Hope you come back stronger, we are all missing you.
30 June 2010 12:45xo
Take care of yourself. Let yourself have time to heal. If you need, go to a psychiatrist to get medication, but go first to a therapist/counselor because medication is great to make you able to work through things, but in my experience, talk therapy is essential.
28 July 2010 00:57I went through a very dark phase with deep depression since June/July 2009, and am now finally getting much better (still on meds, still on therapy). It can be done!
Hugs, and if you need someone who has gone through that as a email-penpal, I am available!
From a dedicated reader,
6 August 2010 19:37Hope everything works itself out :)
Just a fun fact for everybody as well,
We ALL know how HYPED the gosh darn Lime Crime was that Urban Outfitters was carring her product in Canada. Well, I was at the Canadian Flagship store in Toronto recently, and their whole stock (which apparently no one bought) was marker down to $1.99, and then at half off, making it $1.00.
No body was buying any....even at a dollar.
Sorry to hear that! Hope you feel better soon!
4 September 2010 17:09Confessions of a Beautyholic
Just wanted to let you know that I still check up on here occasionally.
4 September 2010 17:26Found your blog only recently - love the whole idea and the attitude.
14 September 2010 17:31Hope you're okay :) !
hey dear! I hope your well!! I know Im one of the ones who emailed you! I know what you mean with that craziness... if you ever need someone to vent to Im here for you! much loves for you here! <3
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